Chapter ~20: Shrutika

My heart is thumping, madly.

How can I behave like this, in front of him?

Somewhere in my heart, I was scared, very-very scare, about his reaction.

I thought that he would shout at me and will leave instantly, rather he cooed me. Made me feel comfortable.

First time in my whole life, someone hugged me like this, like his life depends in it.

My parents never hugged me like this.

I never knew a hug can be this comforting.

I never wanted that hug to end. It was so cozy, comforting.

Suddenly bell rang!

They are back!

I get up and ran to kitchen to put the cups and bowls in kitchen, washed my face and wiped it with sleeves while walking towards door.

I took a deep breath and open the door.

Dad was standing at right whereas mom on left and bhai was in middle of them. Looking like a perfect family. So perfect, that I too wanted to stand beside my brother and act like happy family. Sadly!
I didn’t notice when my eyes become that full as it starts dropping water, a bit.

I ran inside, collected my stuff, and went into my room.

No, don’t cry.

No, Shru, don’t cry.

They just don’t deserve you, Ookh!

I was explaining myself, but my eyes were not agreeing, my heart was craving to be with them.

Why, I am not a perfect child, like my brother to them?

Why everything is so hard?

I get up, locked my door, put up curtains, slowly walk towards my bed out pillow on my face and…

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

I shouted my heart out.

What else I could even do?

I was bit relaxed.

I do not have anything to do. I am not good in studies nor do I am interested in it.

Sports?

 Nahh! I can’t even run a km.

Music?

Parents think it’s stupidity!

What can else, I could do?

Nothing!

Ya, nothing!

I started laughing, a loud!

How stupid I was thinking that I will be a famous singer and make my parents proud.

At last, I am nothing but a piece of garbage in this world.

At last, I am one of those people who do not have any dream or future.

“Auff, these stupid tears!” I said, wiped my tears and slapped myself.

I think I lost my mind.

Oops! I never had one.

Funny! Isn’t it!

I slapped myself, harder, harder and harder.

Tonight, neither my tears nor my laugh stopped.

I lost myself!!