Chapter ~19: Aarav

Put your best smile!

I can do it!

Yes, I can!

Can I?

I shook my head hard, took a deep breath and rang the bell of her house.

Be presentable in front of her parents.

I was sweating badly, it wasn’t like I was asking for her hand, currently.

I put my best smile at my face and here we go. The door open and she was standing in front of me with small smile with missing sparks.

Our eyes locked. That little star in her eyes is my favourite, but now a days, the shine of that star is little dim. I badly want to know the reason for it. But…...

“Hi” she greeted, breaking our eye contact, looking here and there but not in the eyes.

“Hello!” I greeted back, while messing my left hand into my hair. Am not blushing just heat of the weather.

Decembers can be hot to, you know!

An awkward silence spread around us.

Though, in whole situation, she was looking cute in those brown fur set, cozy and comfortable, am lucky enough to stare her.

“Ahm” She cleared her throat while playing with her fingers, “Come in.” she said.

I nodded and we both start walking in.

The house was quite aesthetic and well organised.

She pointed toward sofa directing me to sit on that, I sat then only she asked, “Tea or coffee, no wait! I forgot to bring water. Wait let me bring it first!” She ran towards, kitchen, I guess.

She came back with a glass of water and hand it over to me.

Our finger touched, a little, but they did touch.

“Umm, now what will you have? Should I make coffee for you or tea?” She asked, anxiety was all over her.

I put the glass down on the glass table and get up form sofa, put my both hands on her shoulder and made her sit on sofa. “All I want is you to be relax.” I give her a small smile and she relaxed a bit “If I need anything, I’ll inform you. Okh!”

She nodded and we both start discussing about our presentation.

After 2 hours~

We decided to take break and she went to make coffee for both of us.

In whole discussion she said or reacted, on any point after thinking for minutes. Even if she does not like my any point, she didn’t stop me, neither she said no to it, nor she gave me any her ideas or her views on anything. She just agrees whatever I say.

It's like she is scare of something.

But of what?

Of me!

Uhh!

Whenever I think we took one step one step forward she takes 10 steps backward, but today I get to know that she took a 1000 step backward.

She came back with a tray. She put that on table. She brought two, cups of coffee and bowl Maggie.

“Have it.” She spoke

Whole time, when I am here, she was awkward, nervous, scared.

These feelings were never there, when we use talk. Why today?

Is that because I am at her house, to that I noticed that no one is at her house right now except both of us.

“Where are your parents?” I asked “Actually, I bought some sweets.” I said and took out the box from my bag and hand over to her.

“Ohh! I forgot to tell you they went out with my brother. I stayed because you were coming.” She took the box from my hand and said “Thank you!”

We are alone!

“Actually, I want to say something.” I spoke. She looked at me, like saying ‘Yes, I am hearing.’.

I took a deep breath and said “We can’t continue our presentation like this!”

She looked directly at me, she froze at her place, she wasn’t even blinking. Slowly her eyes start become glossy.

Panic rush all over me.

“Hayy!” I rushed towards her and patted her cheeks a little. She was in shock.

What have I done?

Slowly, tears flow down from her pooled eyes.

I wiped her tears.

She said while sobbing “You too think I am not capable enough.”

What have I done!

Shit!

I took her in my arms, tightly hugging her. Shooing her every negative thought.

I should have use my words wisely, I knew that she was gloomy these days, how could I be this stupid!

“SORRY, Sorry, sorry, sorry. I. Am. Soo sorry. My star!” I begged.

She was crying. So hard.

She was crying, my start is crying.

What have I done!

“Am sorry star, am very-very sorry!” I whispered.

She cried for a long time. Every tear was like needle, piercing into my heart, cruelly.

After all it was my fault.

I separated us and put my hand on both her cheeks, slowly caressing them, “For me, you are more capable than anyone else, star.” I explained her, “I just want you to put out your thoughts, ideas, opinions, disagreement. In front of me. I want you to be you!” I paused, “I just want you to share, things, with me, which are bothering you. I just…”

I don’t know how to put my feelings into word but I want her to be confident in me, to share her heart burden with me.

“I am loving, share my time with you. I am lucky that I got a partner as you-” I looked into her eyes, in search of something, but I didn’t get that something “-in class project. We are friends. You can share you’re your problems with me.”

Will she?

She sniffed, and said “I-I thought that, if I will say something contradictory to your idea then you will be pissed because of me. What if you get angry and will not talk to me again and then you will break our friendship.”

“Star! You have full right to express yourself in front of me. That’s how friendship works. Friends support each other. Share their ever problem, thoughts, opinions. You too can share anything freely with me.” I explained her.

“But she said that if-if I will poke my nose too much into friendship and blabber about my point and opinion then she will break off our friendship, eventually she did!” She spoke.

What the hell!!!

What was wrong with that girl?

I again hugged my star, tightly. I didn’t know that she had faced all this in her life, friends-no people like them are really fuckers.

If, ever in my life, I met that girl, I will just kill her.

She doesn’t deserve to live, people who troubled and hurt my star do not have any right to live in this world.

“Listen to me star; Vanshika, Nishkarsh, Anshika and me, we all are your friends and we will never leave you or break off our friendship with you. Not in this life and ever!” I confidently spoke it while patting her head.

After few minutes, she stopped crying and we separated.

She wiped her tears; her face was red as tomato and her eyes were swollen.

After few minutes she said, in low and sobby voice, “It’s late, you should head back.”

Translation: I need some time.

I don’t want to leave her alone. But I have to do it.

I get up and collected my belongings, hugged her last time and then came out of her house.

I start walking towards my apartment.

After all this conversation, one thing I felt was that the reason she gave me, wasn’t the only reason for her that behaviour. I want to know more but can’t cross the line which is in between us.

“I hope, one day you will remove the friendship line and will share everything with me, star. That time you will realise that, the special one you are searching for, is none other than me, my star.”

Chapter ~19: Aarav

Put your best smile!

I can do it!

Yes, I can!

Can I?

I shook my head hard, took a deep breath and rang the bell of her house.

Be presentable in front of her parents.

I was sweating badly, it wasn’t like I was asking for her hand, currently.

I put my best smile at my face and here we go. The door open and she was standing in front of me with small smile with missing sparks.

Our eyes locked. That little star in her eyes is my favourite, but now a days, the shine of that star is little dim. I badly want to know the reason for it. But…...

“Hi” she greeted, breaking our eye contact, looking here and there but not in the eyes.

“Hello!” I greeted back, while messing my left hand into my hair. Am not blushing just heat of the weather.

Decembers can be hot to, you know!

An awkward silence spread around us.

Though, in whole situation, she was looking cute in those brown fur set, cozy and comfortable, am lucky enough to stare her.

“Ahm” She cleared her throat while playing with her fingers, “Come in.” she said.

I nodded and we both start walking in.

The house was quite aesthetic and well organised.

She pointed toward sofa directing me to sit on that, I sat then only she asked, “Tea or coffee, no wait! I forgot to bring water. Wait let me bring it first!” She ran towards, kitchen, I guess.

She came back with a glass of water and hand it over to me.

Our finger touched, a little, but they did touch.

“Umm, now what will you have? Should I make coffee for you or tea?” She asked, anxiety was all over her.

I put the glass down on the glass table and get up form sofa, put my both hands on her shoulder and made her sit on sofa. “All I want is you to be relax.” I give her a small smile and she relaxed a bit “If I need anything, I’ll inform you. Okh!”

She nodded and we both start discussing about our presentation.

After 2 hours~

We decided to take break and she went to make coffee for both of us.

In whole discussion she said or reacted, on any point after thinking for minutes. Even if she does not like my any point, she didn’t stop me, neither she said no to it, nor she gave me any her ideas or her views on anything. She just agrees whatever I say.

It's like she is scare of something.

But of what?

Of me!

Uhh!

Whenever I think we took one step one step forward she takes 10 steps backward, but today I get to know that she took a 1000 step backward.

She came back with a tray. She put that on table. She brought two, cups of coffee and bowl Maggie.

“Have it.” She spoke

Whole time, when I am here, she was awkward, nervous, scared.

These feelings were never there, when we use talk. Why today?

Is that because I am at her house, to that I noticed that no one is at her house right now except both of us.

“Where are your parents?” I asked “Actually, I bought some sweets.” I said and took out the box from my bag and hand over to her.

“Ohh! I forgot to tell you they went out with my brother. I stayed because you were coming.” She took the box from my hand and said “Thank you!”

We are alone!

“Actually, I want to say something.” I spoke. She looked at me, like saying ‘Yes, I am hearing.’.

I took a deep breath and said “We can’t continue our presentation like this!”

She looked directly at me, she froze at her place, she wasn’t even blinking. Slowly her eyes start become glossy.

Panic rush all over me.

“Hayy!” I rushed towards her and patted her cheeks a little. She was in shock.

What have I done?

Slowly, tears flow down from her pooled eyes.

I wiped her tears.

She said while sobbing “You too think I am not capable enough.”

What have I done!

Shit!

I took her in my arms, tightly hugging her. Shooing her every negative thought.

I should have use my words wisely, I knew that she was gloomy these days, how could I be this stupid!

“SORRY, Sorry, sorry, sorry. I. Am. Soo sorry. My star!” I begged.

She was crying. So hard.

She was crying, my start is crying.

What have I done!

“Am sorry star, am very-very sorry!” I whispered.

She cried for a long time. Every tear was like needle, piercing into my heart, cruelly.

After all it was my fault.

I separated us and put my hand on both her cheeks, slowly caressing them, “For me, you are more capable than anyone else, star.” I explained her, “I just want you to put out your thoughts, ideas, opinions, disagreement. In front of me. I want you to be you!” I paused, “I just want you to share, things, with me, which are bothering you. I just…”

I don’t know how to put my feelings into word but I want her to be confident in me, to share her heart burden with me.

“I am loving, share my time with you. I am lucky that I got a partner as you-” I looked into her eyes, in search of something, but I didn’t get that something “-in class project. We are friends. You can share you’re your problems with me.”

Will she?

She sniffed, and said “I-I thought that, if I will say something contradictory to your idea then you will be pissed because of me. What if you get angry and will not talk to me again and then you will break our friendship.”

“Star! You have full right to express yourself in front of me. That’s how friendship works. Friends support each other. Share their ever problem, thoughts, opinions. You too can share anything freely with me.” I explained her.

“But she said that if-if I will poke my nose too much into friendship and blabber about my point and opinion then she will break off our friendship, eventually she did!” She spoke.

What the hell!!!

What was wrong with that girl?

I again hugged my star, tightly. I didn’t know that she had faced all this in her life, friends-no people like them are really fuckers.

If, ever in my life, I met that girl, I will just kill her.

She doesn’t deserve to live, people who troubled and hurt my star do not have any right to live in this world.

“Listen to me star; Vanshika, Nishkarsh, Anshika and me, we all are your friends and we will never leave you or break off our friendship with you. Not in this life and ever!” I confidently spoke it while patting her head.

After few minutes, she stopped crying and we separated.

She wiped her tears; her face was red as tomato and her eyes were swollen.

After few minutes she said, in low and sobby voice, “It’s late, you should head back.”

Translation: I need some time.

I don’t want to leave her alone. But I have to do it.

I get up and collected my belongings, hugged her last time and then came out of her house.

I start walking towards my apartment.

After all this conversation, one thing I felt was that the reason she gave me, wasn’t the only reason for her that behaviour. I want to know more but can’t cross the line which is in between us.

“I hope, one day you will remove the friendship line and will share everything with me, star. That time you will realise that, the special one you are searching for, is none other than me, my star.”